Wednesday, August 10, 2011

trying to be better

The title of this blog is how I actually want to be, to be better.  I want to be a better wife, mother, sister, daughter, friend and person.  I think each day is now an opportunity for me to improve myself.  Some days I may be successful at this and many days I know I won't.

In a marriage you need to constantly work on communication and understanding.  I definitely need to work on these two things.  As a mother I need to work on not being such a worrier.  I need to be more present with E and not run through the list of my worries and concerns.  I need to not obsess about his naps and getting him to nap in his crib (but I can't help myself).  I want to not be so scared of what will happen to our bond once he goes to daycare.  I just keep telling myself that we will make this work for our family and trust in the whole "change is good".

I just want to try and improve myself because I want to be the best possible me that I can.  I want to make E proud of me as his mother and J proud of me as his wife.

E is 15 weeks old today and I can't believe how fast it is going.  The first 8 weeks seemed to go by really slowly but these last 7 have flown by!  I can't believe he is almost 4 months old.  He's becoming more and more chatty and still loves his tongue.  He is also really starting to explore with his hands and seems to enjoy tummy time a bit more than he did before.

Today has been a bit rough for him, he is just a bit cranky.  I think this is due to the fact that it's getting more difficult for him to nap for more than 30 minutes.  I wish there was some kind of magic tool I could use to help him link his sleep cycles.  He would just feel better and more relaxed.  I just keep trying to help him and hoping that someday it will work for him.    Trying hard to be at my best for him.  :)

This isn't the most interesting post but again, just a place for me to write down my thoughts.

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